killing me softly with his songs

Recently so many things have happened

good and bad

but this month is certainly not a good one for me.

i wonder how long more i'll need to finally get over him

to the point when i think of him i'll not be sad

我一定能学会在想你的时候 不难过

this few days i found out some stuffs that really hurt my heart

something that i really never thought of

something that i refuse to believe initially

although till now if i have a choice i would still rather not know

but it seems like i really have to face the reality, the ugly truth

the fact that he haven't forgot his 4years ex all this while even when we're together

baby, remember we talked about this before?

you assured me that she's no longer in your heart and there's only me now.

but it seems like the other way round now.

i feel so dumb to be crying over you now, why must you lie to me?

whenever i think of the fact that here i am crying over you, yet there you are feeling sad over another girl, it just gives me a very betrayed feeling.

do you know how i felt when i saw your conversation with your friend?

you said you were hurt by a girl before, others won't understand your feelings and how hurt you felt back then.

that's why it's like only right that you play with girls now

so am i like one of your victims too?

just your toy to play with when you're bored and when you're sick of it you can just throw me away?

have you ever thought about how others feel when you're doing this?

all you care about is your own feelings, how hurt and betrayed you once felt because of her.

you know how bad it hurts yet you still inflict that same pain on others

what have i done to deserve this?

you use to tell me 将心比心

but have you done that this time?

i really don't wanna hate you, i want to save your perfect image in my heart

and not this bastard you understand?

i really wanna know exactly what's the truth

although it may be meaningless now to you, but i really wanna know

but i doubt this will ever happen, can you not avoid me!

i hate you for doing that

i told myself, i don't wanna drop a single tear for you anymore

i don't wanna feel sad over a bastard like you anymore but do you know how hard it is.

是你找到了我
在我的心中刻下了你的承诺
难道你不遵守
思念纠缠着我
闭上眼我就忘了恨你的理由
想起那些温柔
你为什么放开我的双手
我试着体会生命充满各种苦衷
我在黑暗之中寻找幸福的下落
等待原来那颗流星划过我的天空
总要在说完再见以后才开始明白爱多浓
今晚你想念的人是不是我
因为绝望所以学会祈求
我也不想让心痛对我予取予求
想要爱到最后的最后
想要和你再一次牵手
除非我背叛我的灵魂
除非我可以假装快乐
除非你忍心放我一个人难过
一无所有我的天空
等你回头
我想念的人会不会懂