finally after almost 3 weeks, i see you again.

i guess i still need more time away from you?

i'm still kind of affected by you

the first day was still alright, i realised i didn't really care about your presence that much.

but the second day was abit more tough

cause you actually came over and talk to me yourself

i've already did my part and tried to ignore you, treating you like you're invisible

smiling and talking to everyone except you.

but you blew it, you came over yourself!

i was damn shocked can?

i was busy arranging the brochures at one corner myself then suddenly

somebody talked to me from behind

*excuse me*

so i turned around and said yes? thinking it was a customer

and you laughed so happily

your smile is still so attractive

never would i have thought that it would be you

i really don't understand you, i don't know what you are thinking

what you did makes me feel like we're still together or at least on good terms

playing around with each other like nothing has happened before

baby you're still so cute

after this how do you want me treat you as an invisible person?!

you've already made me notice you

like your way of saying hello to me

i really miss those happy times we had last time

playing around disturbing each other, having lunch together during work, waiting for you to end work and go have supper together at sunshine place and walking me home after that.

all those simple things yet so blissful

baby you liar, you said we can meet anytime because we're still friends

but no i don't feel that way.

i really don't know what is going through your mind at all

sometimes you make me feel as though we're still on good terms

but sometimes we're like total stranger with no contact at all

you make me feel like i shouldn't cling onto you anymore even as friends

like you don't give a damn about me

what's wrong with you?

or is it my fault?

after sunday i really feel like contacting you

be it sms wise or calling you

but i know i shouldn't do that anymore

i promised myself that i won't contact you myself anymore

i don't want you to think that i'm irritating

i don't wanna be like the other girls around you

see you in 5days time

i miss you baby

after so long why haven't i got over you?

though things are much better already

i don't cry so much at night now

but i still think of you every now and then

but i'm facing the fact instead

like the fact that you broke up with me not because of any other reason but because you don't love me anymore.

do you know how much courage i need to accept this fact?

so many different lies i've heard from others

i really wanna believe them all

but if it's not the truth why lie baby?

is it really like what rachel say

you only said all these to make yourself look better in the break up?

i've never wanna believe this but it seems like that's the ugly truth

baby i don't wanna contact you anymore

i really have to refrain myself from calling you or texting you already.

i cannot believe we actually reached the stage where by i don't know what to talk to you about anymore, when i called you that day seriously i really hoped i did not do that.

in that case i wouldn't realise this!

it sucks to end up like that

when we used to have never ending topics to talk about and now i can't even hold a conversation more than 2mins with you.

i really wonder how long more is this is gonna continue

not going to work for 2 weeks is a wise choice i guess

i think my wounds are healing already

as long as nothing drastic happens

like you have a new girlfriend already etc

i really cannot imagine one day i login to facebook and i see

haroy soh is in a relationship with blah blah blah

i think i'll go crazy? haha

that day your msn pm is already killing me!

what i love you it's not for others to see, are you telling me that you are in love with someone else already?! baby i know i have no rights to stop you but it's only been 2 months!

i cannot take it!

oh god help me get over him please!

i don't wanna wash my face with tears because of him anymore!

i think it's enough tears shed for the same reason

please speed up the recovery process!!

i'm dying here

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